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My friend said writing without ink might ease the pain.
But it didn't work.

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Thursday, January 3, 2008 [9:30 PM]

hello peepz! i'm back! wahahaha!
people like terenz, weixin, royston, must've been missing me. XD
relax man i'll update on my trip. but not now.

did a few changes to the blog layouts. added a few elements. elliott yamin needs a break. he cant keep on waiting.

first of all. HAPPY 2008! i made it to 2008! i survived! yes i aint joking. i was so intimidated i couldnt make it back. seriously. i even visited the hospital back in paris. i had viral infection on my lungs. i almost coughed myself to death. i nearly fought with a couple of Frenchmen. luckily my gf was there. ok enough of paris.

let me make my new year resolutions! c'mon it's never too late eh?

2007 had gone away. just like that. to me 2007 was a year of recognition. an affirmation i gave to myself where my standards are. a measurement of my abilities.

it was a year i did my final-year-project & internship. after that i went ahead to hunt for jobs. IT related jobs. my maiden's attempt. was happily employed and paid though.

not only was i exposed to a real-time environment on the development of an application, i also got to practise what i've learnt throughout the years in SP. i attained heartening grades too, they really boosted my confidence in IT.

i also got to know buddies like royston, weixin, aaron & sunny. ian, shasha, salina. weixin & royston! had been laughing away with them without fail during breaktimes. stop the cupcake joke!

the beginning of 2008. a ferocious argument befell. not a very good start eh? i threw things. i cursed and sweared. i sank onto the sofa and stoned for hours. slowly i began to regret. why had i do things this way? wasn't there a better avenue? later in the evening, i cried. yes i did. i know it's fucking sissy for a guy to shed tears but i couldnt control myself. especially when i get emotional.

i hate myself. when i look into the mirror. i could no longer recognise that person staring back at me. all along i have been finding it extremely hard to put down my amour propre. sometimes a simple gesture like apologizing or giving a hug could make things better. but i failed to do so. i'm indecisive too. i always do things that turned out to make myself disturbed. i'm fucking outta my mind.

i wanna thank my parents. silent taking of all the shit i've done all these years. i wanna thank all my friends who have been lending me their ears. clowning around to bright me up but they failed. nice try though. appreciated.

i wanna be a better person in the days to come. i wont relinquish to fate. never.

2007 once again.

[2007 SOS LIVE EARTH CONCERT]
best thing that could ever happen.

fav. hideout from exhaustion.

majestic view outside one of my workplace.

departure-overflowing sorrow

oscar a.k.a little rascal

everything could have been better;